Making yourself your own home will always be the best option. But what if we have been home for so long that we do not notice that what we allow to come in slowly destroys it? Sometimes, we only allow the things that we are familiar with without knowing how much it affects us, such as pain. Sometimes, it is the people that has always been around but we were never familiar.
Your life these days may have been down lately and at the back of your mind, you are thirsty for love, maybe not that of romantic, but the kind of love from people who really cares. The thing is that we have been spending too much time facing the faults in ourselves, that we lose time to face the people who loves us. You do not need to open up your doors, sometimes you just need to open just the windows so you could get a different view and a breathe of fresh air. What we don’t realize is at sometimes, we forget to breathe, and that we also deserve fresh air to come inside us. It is suffocating to be surrounded by happiness and not making the effort to feel it.
It is maybe that we deny it to ourselves to the “care” of others as valid and true. We do not allow ourselves to trust people who wants to come inside and help rebuild our home. We look too much at ourselves about how we suffer, but we do not look at how others are so much willing to give to help us out. Trust is always a part of the process. We keep on staring at our flaws when sometimes what we need is even just a peek to see the beauty that’s has always been around us.
We are not afraid to open up, we are scared of being misunderstood by our people.
There are times that it is difficult to absorb the love around us even though they exist because we shut them down without giving it a chance. We have been slaving ourselves with the idea that we do not need any kind of care and love from others. We choose to conceal the pain in ourselves because we do not want them to suffer seeing us suffering. We don’t want people to let them feel a bit of what we are feeling. We don’t want people to worry about us, or be sad about what we feel. We do not want them to feel useless for not being able to pull us up when we fall. We do not want them to see us vulnerable. We are vulnerable and it won’t help to be misunderstood so we just try so hard to please people by showing off we are well but forget to please ourselves by the love we’ve been subconsciously ignoring from them.
It is difficult to accept who we are or what we have become. At some point, we miss the person that we used to be before everything happened. Sometimes, a peek on a hole from the wall that we have built is something that can make a difference. If only we could guard ourselves a little less even just for a little while, then something that we don’t expect might be waiting for us.