Same shit, different day.
Another day has started, you get up the bed, get a shower, grab your drink and you’re ready to go. Same old routine, over and over again. You tell yourself you are tired. No matter how much sleep you get, you are tired. Are you really just tired? maybe not, you are tired and unhappy. You could be exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally.
You are on a mental state of breaking down while telling yourself to keep pushing through to achieve your goals. You want to reach your dreams, but it seems that there is no way out of the situation. You feel like you have been exhausting your resources all for nothing, and nothing means just living the life as usual.
Somebody asks “you okay?”, you answer “just tired” but deep inside your soul, you are screaming, you are hurt, you are crying, all by yourself. You push yourself to smile and act fine but how you wish someone would come and dig deeper within you. Someone who would care, someone to understand, and someone to stay even seeing the darkest parts of your mind. Someone who’s not afraid of the little rain because you are lightning and thunderstorms. You want someone to get into your comfort zone, but you’re afraid you might hurt and destroy them too.
You feel like a mess, a broken glass with shards that may hurt whoever touches it. A cactus on a desert, a rose full of thorns. It may not be the end, but remind yourself, only you will never leave you. Everyone may leave but not you.
You’re a mess but you’re a beautiful one. A broken glass but sees the good through the people. A cactus, independent and strong. A rose, where there is beauty despite its thorns. You are hurt, but be compassionate. Be the moon on somebody’s darkest nights, don’t let anyone you care for go through the same shit as you. They may not be as fragile as you are, but you can never break. You may be lightning and thunderstorms, but not everyone has the same heart as you.
With this, I leave it here;
A note to self : Mind over matter, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.